Showing posts with label hobbies. Show all posts
Showing posts with label hobbies. Show all posts

31 May 2016

On the Road to Health

Things have been changing for me as time progresses. I’ve been calm and generally happy, lately, which I would gladly attribute to my smoking marijuana. More than that, however, I’m happy because smoking usually gives me the munchies, but lately that hasn’t been the case. I’ve overeaten a lot lately regardless, but my realization that I’m no longer feeling the munchies feels significantly important to me, like the realization itself was the first step to making the health changes I need to.
            This morning, I woke up shortly after my alarm, rather than simply shutting it off and going back to sleep to await when I need to react and get up. I’m tired of living my life in a reactionary way; my goal is to live my life in a proactive and productive way, so it gave me a measure of pride to rise before 07:30. I cooked breakfast this morning; last night, I changed the bed sheets and folded a load of laundry. These are some recent things I consider successes in my life.
            My health is not at its peak. I’m sure I’ve gained weight again; I can feel it and I can see it in the mirror. The fat is in my face and I can’t un-see it when I take a selfie or look closely at myself in the mirror. Keeping the munchies at bay while smoking weed has been my dream since I started smoking weed; the fucking munchies ruin me. I binge-eat and hold it down rather than puking like I really feel like doing. It’s unhealthy and it needs to change and that’s a fact that has been solidified in my mind since taking my health and wellness class.
            It might help me to publicize my physical health journey. I feel as though I now have the ability to control what and how much I eat, more than ever before; part of that is my starting to cook. I cooked breakfast this morning; I can start cooking breakfast every day and gradually include lunch and/or dinner. This would give Randy a break from cooking and we wouldn’t go out as often, since the cooking burden would be shared.
            This blog would serve as a decent way to log my journey and I can begin now by reporting that I ate a handful of scrambled eggs with broccoli for breakfast and Wendy’s for lunch. I’m full now but I didn’t feel too stuffed after my fast food meal; moreover, we walked over to the thrift shop and wandered around it for a while to burn off some of the calories right away. I’m exhausted now because meandering around stores takes more energy than I understand; I did eat some dumplings with my friend Katherine, as well, as we smoked a blunt together after I took her to City Hall.
            I finished last week’s homework all on time, as well. One of my assignments was to create a blog entry about an infectious disease. I chose bacterial vaginosis and I’ve been considering posting it to my actual blog, as it is good information to spread but I’m not sure it’s the most relevant thing in the world. Not as relevant as, say, climate change, that’s for sure. My first assignment was a PowerPoint presentation on Alzheimer’s Disease. That’s another topic I considered blogging about, as I am at an elevated risk for the disease due to my great-grandma having dementia.

            My healing journey is progressing steadily, I think. I’m still taking Ziprasidone at night, which may also be helping my mood. I’m excited about the new development with my marijuana habit; not having the munchies makes it really easy to just drink water or some other beverage, instead of stuffing my face continuously.

07 March 2015

Getting My Baby to Sleep

                “Shhh… Shhh… Shhh…” The mantra is a regular, along with Hush Little Baby and the occasional Alouette as I rock my six-month-old daughter in an attempt to make her sleep. Her eyes are heavy; they drift close only to snap back open and stare blearily at me, drifting closed yet again. Watching her fight sleep would be entertaining if it weren’t such a regular habit.
                Just about any parent on the plant knows the struggle, and if they don’t, I want to know their secrets to having babies sleep at regular times that can be scheduled.  My husband and I have been bed-sharing with our daughter since shortly after her birth; she slept better between the two of us and we wanted to be able to sleep, too. Now, she’s six going on seven months old and I am doing my absolute best to get her to sleep in her own bed. We have a pack-n-play set up on my side of the bed and I feel this need to insert myself as her mother, fully and completely, by getting her on a sleeping schedule wherein she sleeps in her own bed and things go well. I’m probably imagining some kind of unreachable utopia of parenthood that never happens, but it’s a damned good fantasy, damn it!
                It’s only been a few days, but here’s the rundown:
                Day after day, night after night, I sit in my recliner and rock with my daughter as I try to get her to fall asleep so I can put her in her bed and get work done. So far, I have only succeeded twice, and her sleep was short-lived. I don’t mind the short life of the nap as much as the times I’ve failed getting her to stay asleep after putting her down in her bed. I set up the old Graco swing my grandparents bought for us from a garage sale and found out Persephone enjoyed it. Shortly thereafter, I discovered that it wanted to launch Persephone at the TV. I still put her in the swing, but I either push her manually or watch her like a hawk while it’s on so that I can turn it off should it get even slightly too fast. We need a newer swing, but what can you do when you’re broke? That’s why I’ve been trying to learn HTML and other computer skills in order to have more success with my blog and, soon, my webcomic. Between trying to get Persephone to sleep and trying to work on my computer skills and making money online, I’ve found myself pushing off the Wii and getting a workout with Just Dance 4.

                This evening, I became so angry that I was shaking. Persephone had woken up both times I’d put her down in her bed; both times, she’d looked around for a minute or two and then started crying. I can’t figure out why she won’t go back to sleep like she’s done twice for me previously. Am I putting her down too quickly? Maybe I should fake putting her down before actually putting her down so that she doesn’t think much of it. Maybe I should also move slower as I go.

24 June 2014

Learning to Knit

                Knitting is a relatively recent hobby that I picked up after walking into the Craft & Party store on base. I’d been walking through the store, looking at the various items—jewelry making, sewing, felting, quilting, scrapbooking, stuff to make false plants, embroidery, crochet… and knitting. Oh, if you could have seen the amount of yarn on the shelves! Having never been to a craft store before, I was impressed by the sheer amount of yarn lining the shelves in the back of the store. Patterns hung in little basket holders here and there from the shelves as well—and every pattern was free to take, whether it was a knitting or crochet pattern!
                I was overwhelmed by the sheer number of options in the store. Where should I start? Should I even do anything? I didn’t have any real hobbies; I just spent all of my free time messing around with random crap on the Internet. My typical day consisted of going to work, coming home, and killing time before going to bed by generally browsing the Internet. A lot of time was spent on Tumblr. Looking at the yarn, though, I was filled with the impulse to take some and make something with it.
                Near the yarns were your typical yarn-craft supplies—knitting needles, crochet hooks… and looms. Looms? Looms. There were knitting looms. I found them fascinating, and still do, but just like the first day I laid eyes on them, I still have no idea how to use a knitting loom—however, unlike that first day, I have every intention of learning once I have the money to invest in a loom set. I didn’t buy anything the first day I stepped into the craft store… I wanted to give some thought to what I was doing, rather than impulsively buying something to do, only to give up on it and have a bunch of leftover material to follow me around forever with no purpose (I’ve done this before).
                When Randy and I met up at the end of the day, I told him about my adventure in the craft store and the massive collection of yarns. I had noticed, while in the store, that they had kits for learning to knit. I made a point of bringing this up to Randy, as well. His response was typical of him.
                “You can do whatever you want.” What a frustrating response! Of course I can do whatever I want! The question was, should I? Randy was no help in making a decision.
                I thought about the craft store and the idea of beginning to knit for the rest of the night. The next day, I returned to the craft store. I happened to have Randy’s credit card on me, because at the time I had no spending money to use on food for lunch. Walking into the craft store, I took a good while looking at the kits available for learning to knit.
                The first kit that caught my attention and held it was contained in a tube. It consisted of a pair of U.S. Size 15 knitting needles, fluffy pink yarn, and a knitting pattern for a scarf. It was made for breast cancer awareness and therefore had the signature pink ribbon on it, as well as a name like “Knit Pink”, or something. All I really wanted was that fluffy pink yarn, so I grabbed the kit, assuming that I would kill two birds with one stone in learning to knit and acquiring the coolest yarn I’d seen in the store.
                This was about the time that I noticed the other two learn-to-knit kits. One was in the theme of Disney Princesses and didn’t hold my attention for more than a moment. The other, on the contrary, captivated me with the picture of Mickey Mouse on the cover and a pair of red knitting needles whose ends were shaped like Mickey’s head. Mickey Mouse knitting needles? OMG! Need! I was officially torn in half between two kits—the Knit Pink kit with a scarf pattern, which I held in my hand, and the Mickey Mouse kit with the title “I Taught Myself to Knit!” on the cover of the little book it came with.
                Ultimately, the Mickey Mouse-shaped needles won out. I put the Knit Pink tube kit back on the rack and grabbed the book with Mickey’s face on it, looking at the materials included. Two pairs of knitting needles—the red, Mickey-ended ones and a pair of plain gold closed-ended needles, both U.S. Size 8—along with two needle caps in the shape of Mickey’s head, two Mickey Mouse items that I still don’t know what to do with, and a little package of stitch counters. I tried comparing these items to those contained in the Knit Pink kit, but couldn’t see through the yarn and needles to discern if anything else was included. The Mickey Mouse kit was simply laid out much better, in a more professional way. I was sold.
I mean, just look at it:
                Mickey Mouse kit, a few patterns, and quite a few skeins of yarn later, I stood at the checkout counter while the cashier ran Randy’s card. It went through and everything cost a surprising amount totaling less than $20! Holy crap, knitting was cheap!
                Following my first purchase of crafty items, I proceeded to follow directions in the book for how to do basic knitting. I found myself with a practice swatch…
                I wasn’t entirely sure what to think of my beginner’s practice swatch. I had a feeling something was wrong with it, but as a beginner, I also figured that was to be expected. I especially didn’t like the holes in the work and how they were most prominent in the row I’d cast on. But, I kept at it until I felt confident enough to begin one of the book’s projects—a coin purse.
                I chose the huge skein of green yarn I’d purchased, unsure just how much yarn this purse was going to use up. It wasn’t the most attractive green, but I didn’t particularly care. I figured, if nothing else, I could probably give it to my little sister at some point to use to carry something.
                It took some time getting the cast on just right, but at last, the coin purse idea started to come together in the first rows of stitches…

                As with my practice swatch, I was rather unhappy with the looseness of the cast on row of stitches. I also noticed that my stitches had a hitch at one point—the left picture above is a close-up of said hitch. It amused me, because I thought things were going quite well, all things considered.
                What I didn’t expect in the making of the coin purse was for someone to show an interest in it, but before I knew it, my dad’s girlfriend—now ex—was saying she wanted the coin purse! I had no problems with this. The very idea that someone would want my creation filled me with pride.
                Despite that pride, however, I still felt as if I wasn’t quite doing very well with the coin purse. I decided that I would make a second practice swatch, with which I would practice the different stitches covered in the Mickey book. What came from it was far more impressive than the previous practice swatch, indeed.
                I appeared to have mastered the stockinette stitch, and I was alternating with the garter stitch. I was quite proud of my handiwork! Thus, the coin purse took shape even more…
Then, once it was long enough to fold in half and operate as a purse of any kind, I sewed the sides closed…
                I noticed that when I sewed it closed and turned it outside-out, one side was definitely… uneven. So, I tested the integrity of the coin purse by placing my cell phone within and holding it by the close flap. It held! The tension was good and it was actually operational, despite the cosmetic flaw. So, I continued with it.
                I wasn’t sure exactly what to do for decoration of any kind, so once again, I found myself at the craft store, looking around. I stared for days at the various ribbons they had available, until one day I decided I wanted to add ribbons with beads on the ends of them. I wanted the ribbons to be on the close flap, to help hold it closed, since there was certainly no button hole and I didn’t have anything with which to do snaps.
                One day, during the time I was working on the strap for the coin purse, I went to a friend’s house for a “craft night”. This friend does many, many crafts! She crochets, makes jewelry, sews, and does graphic design, to name a few things. The one thing she doesn’t do is knit. While I was at her house, I lamented my lack of closure for the little purse, and she offered me a snap! Thus, the coin purse officially had closure!
                The above picture was in fact taken at my own house, after I had finished the ribbons and beads, but it shows the snap closure, nonetheless.
                The rest, they say, is history. You can find the finished coin purse in my Store for what I like to think is a reasonable price. It includes shipping, which can be expensive, and frankly, if it weren’t for the unevenness of part of the purse itself, I would make the product more expensive, because those beads were pretty pricey. They’re jewelry beads, because the only place I knew to buy beads was at the craft store, and the only beads they had were these bulky, heavy jewelry beads. I had a hard time pulling the ribbons through the beads in order to properly accomplish the look you see in the picture above, but at last, I managed.
                My knitting skills are much better, now, and I am currently working on about three projects. One is a bulky scarf that I have put on the back-burner due to the fact that for some incomprehensible reason, I keep accidentally increasing stitches. Another is a baby blanket I’m making for my incoming daughter, and the third is a scarf I decided to make on a whim but for which I already have a buyer lined up because my friend is a really big fan of this shade of purple!
The Bulky Scarf:
The Baby Blanket:
 The Purple Scarf:
                The baby blanket and purple scarf are coming along nicely. One of these days, I’ll jump back into the green, bulky scarf, but that day is not today. I may have to rip out more stitches than I really want to right now, because that pattern uses a lot of yarn. I might even just scrap the entire thing, buy a couple new balls, and start again with the pattern entirely. Nothing is certain yet with that project.